Hey guys! How long has it been? Not sure if anyone still reads this blog but I'm just popping in with my 2019 blog post.
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Here's to the end of another decade.
And so here I am, writing my slightly overdue cliche-end-of-the-year-reflections. I'm not one who's into cliché stuff and the only reason why I'm doing this is because, well I feel like I want to. To celebrate the good and bad, move on from the bad and of course, be able to look back on this one day (most likely checking in on the last day of the new year) and see how different this new year would be. I spent New Year's Eve lying on my bed alone watching Netflix last night. No frills, no party, no gatherings, no celebrations. Yet it was refreshing, and rejuvenating even. The new year means nothing to me, and it's just another day on the calendar. But it always reminds me to take some time off to review my life - to reflect, bid goodbye to the past, and to welcome the new.
I wonder if this would sound weird but in some sense I feel like I can't recall some (or most) of the things that happened this year, especially the in-betweens. So pardon me if this whole post sounds anomalous, I'm trying my best to recall. *nervous laughter*
2019. I'd like to think that it has been a good run, to say the least. I think most of my vision has been blurred out because I've spent the last two months just having the best time of the year. It feels like I'm drunk and have been, but it's a good kind of high I must admit - living a real life without Uni, chilling around with friends, eating copious amounts of food, road tripping, vlogging, graduating, having my family over in Tassie with me, and so much more. (And no, I still don't drink.) The last two months of the year was unexpectedly good, and on some days it all still feels like a dream - especially the week when my family was here. They made me feel like I was at home again, even when our home was more than four thousand miles away. It felt surreal having them here because I've spent almost four years here by myself, only seeing them when I'm back home during school breaks; which happens only twice a year. Plus, it was the first time seeing them again after nine whole months!
Then again, all these don't overwrite all the downs I've had this year. There were plenty of them. In fact, I went through one of the lowest points in my life. I lost, failed, fell, hurt and cried way too many times. I guess I could say it was one of the toughest years I've had, but it was also one of the best years at the same time. I suppose there isn't really such a thing like the "best year" or a good one because good and bad things are bound to happen within a given period, and so I've learned to accept every year as it comes.
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Many things happened in 2019. Many firsts, which I guess was pretty predictable (because life is always about experiencing new things amirite?!). Many bumpy roads and hiccups too, and I was forced to accept and cope with many things that came with grief. Grief accompanied me throughout the year as I picked up myself from the losses, and kept me awake on many lonely nights - but because of it, I learned how to cope and move on with life despite all the struggles. I also finally learned how to accept and love myself more, by having a healthier diet and lifestyle (I was pretty damn active, working out at 4-5 times a day consistently for weeks and even months). I had a lot more time for myself since I lived alone, and even more so after my LDR ended. So I took all the time I had and invested it in myself - to do things that I love, to treat my body better, cook good food, watch more dramas, take photos and did whatever I wanted. Because I learned how to love myself more, I stopped settling for anything less than I deserved, stood up for myself more, and learned how to not tolerate bullshit from some people. I also prioritised my studies, worked my ass off for my assignments, and did decently well in school. I guess I could say that I spent most of the year looking forward to my graduation, because after all I've already been in Uni for 4 years.
I'd like to think that 2019 treated me pretty well, and one thing I know for sure is that the year will always have a special place in my heart (and life) because graduating from Uni marks the end of another significant chapter in my life. 2018 was a year of growth, change and learning. 2019 too, was a year of growth and learning - and also a year of acceptance & understanding self-love perhaps? I think I learned many valuable lessons this year, and I'm grateful for them. I wonder what 2020 has in store for me, but I can't say that I'm not excited to see where life will bring me to next.
Would it be a good year?
I guess we'll see.
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Here's to the end of another decade.
And so here I am, writing my slightly overdue cliche-end-of-the-year-reflections. I'm not one who's into cliché stuff and the only reason why I'm doing this is because, well I feel like I want to. To celebrate the good and bad, move on from the bad and of course, be able to look back on this one day (most likely checking in on the last day of the new year) and see how different this new year would be. I spent New Year's Eve lying on my bed alone watching Netflix last night. No frills, no party, no gatherings, no celebrations. Yet it was refreshing, and rejuvenating even. The new year means nothing to me, and it's just another day on the calendar. But it always reminds me to take some time off to review my life - to reflect, bid goodbye to the past, and to welcome the new.
I wonder if this would sound weird but in some sense I feel like I can't recall some (or most) of the things that happened this year, especially the in-betweens. So pardon me if this whole post sounds anomalous, I'm trying my best to recall. *nervous laughter*
2019. I'd like to think that it has been a good run, to say the least. I think most of my vision has been blurred out because I've spent the last two months just having the best time of the year. It feels like I'm drunk and have been, but it's a good kind of high I must admit - living a real life without Uni, chilling around with friends, eating copious amounts of food, road tripping, vlogging, graduating, having my family over in Tassie with me, and so much more. (And no, I still don't drink.) The last two months of the year was unexpectedly good, and on some days it all still feels like a dream - especially the week when my family was here. They made me feel like I was at home again, even when our home was more than four thousand miles away. It felt surreal having them here because I've spent almost four years here by myself, only seeing them when I'm back home during school breaks; which happens only twice a year. Plus, it was the first time seeing them again after nine whole months!
Then again, all these don't overwrite all the downs I've had this year. There were plenty of them. In fact, I went through one of the lowest points in my life. I lost, failed, fell, hurt and cried way too many times. I guess I could say it was one of the toughest years I've had, but it was also one of the best years at the same time. I suppose there isn't really such a thing like the "best year" or a good one because good and bad things are bound to happen within a given period, and so I've learned to accept every year as it comes.
In 2019, I:
- Celebrated my first Valentines (or should I say, first proper celebration hahaha).
- Watched More Than Blue (aka 比悲伤更悲伤的故事) in the cinema and cried buckets of tears.
- Brought a lost puppy home for the first time, and regretted it (because he peed and shitted all over in my balcony and I had to clean it up the next morning, drunk on only 3 hours of sleep).
- Lost my closest and dearest grandpa.
- Hit the gym consistently, and later on joined F45 for a couple of months.
- Started running again for a short period of time (and clocking in long distance for the first time in my life! Ran my first 10K on the treadmill, and it was an accomplishment because I've always hated running.)
- Started taking care of my health and loving myself more.
- Learned Japanese (I had to because it was an elective, but I didn't enjoy learning it..)
- Had a first friend-trip to Sydney in June! It was my second visit in Sydney.
- Had my first internship at S. Group, and I loved the company! Learned heaps too.
- Broke up with someone I loved.
- Started journaling as a means to cope and destress, and it did help me for a while.
- Joined my first and last ever architecture competition in school.
- Did my first ever portfolio in my life. I had so much fun designing it and putting all my past works/projects together in a book.
- FINALLY GRADUATED FROM UNI!
- Made more friends and got close to some.
- ATE a lot. Oops.
Now, to the highlights and my favourite moments of the year:
- A date at P.S cafe and iLight at Marina Bay
- Joining F45! Made friends with the trainers, and I loved all the classes.
- Visiting more places in Sydney! The best food I've had in Sydney was the acai bowl at Hale and Hearty.
- Uni graduation! God knows how long I've waited for this.
- Family's visit to Tasmania. A trip I'll always remember.
- All the times I spent with my family and my friends. Facetime calls y'all.
- Meeting new people, and forging new friendships. All the h2h sessions I've had with my friends, and all the impromptu road trips and fun nights we shared.
And things I am grateful for:
- All the good food and coffee I've had this year. Be it cafe brunches, or trying out new restaurants. Favourite restaurant in Launnie would be Rupert and Hound!
- Sweetbrew's citrusy, lemony pancakes. (I know Cuccina's pancakes made it to the list in 2018, thus it will be different this year.)
- Books. I think I bought the most number of books this year, even though I barely had the time to read them. The White Book, The Things You Can See Only When You Slow Down and The Lover's Dictionary would make it to the top list this year.
- Voice of China 2019. So happy with the new team of judges in the new season, although I feel like I enjoyed 2018's batch of singers/contestants more.
- Freaking NETFLIX, and dramas. 2019 was probably the year that I watched the most number of dramas - I think I watched a total of more than 20 dramas. Perhaps even 30. I loved most of it, and my favourites would definitely be: The Last Empress, Romance is a bonus book, Vagabond, One Spring Night, Eternal Love, Doctor John and The Light In Your Eyes. Of course there were a lot more good ones but I think those I have listed are the ones I enjoyed most. I also loved the series YOU and also the variety show Busted on Netflix (Thanks to Busted, I laughed so much more.)
- Youtube. I always like to switch between Youtube and Netflix when I want to watch something on my iMac because I'm THAT easily bored. Hahaha. Favourite Youtubers would be Michelle Choi and Zoenotzoey.
- Poetry. Words that get to me almost all the time.
- My newest Canon camera, gifted by lé dearest brother. It captured some of my favourite moments and memories in 2019, and because of it I started to vlog more.
- Oatmeal. Oatmeal. Oatmeal. I've said this countless of times on my ryleats account and Dayre, but I've been so obsessed with oatmeal ever since I started eating it for breakfast more than a year ago. I don't think anyone would be able to understand how much joy it brings me - I literally go to bed dreaming about having a bowl of it for breakfast the next morning, and it's one thing that gets me out of bed every day. As they always say..."Do something that makes you jump out of bed every morning." It's legit, oatmeal is that something.
- Facebook memes that make me laugh all the damn time.
- Spotify, duh because MUSIC. According to Spotify (2019), My top songs of the year are: No matter what, Best Part of me, and Burning. Apparently I spent 90 hours with Sam Smith on Spotify, cool shit. I absolutely love him though, he's literally a queen.
- Summer. Long gone are the days of layering and worrying that I'd freeze my ass off without my sweaters.
- Forging new friendships. I wouldn't have ever talked to some of them if not for this year's summer break.
- My family, of course. For always being my greatest pillar of strength and support, despite being miles away. They will always be my everything.
- Gym regularly (3-4 times/week) and finally be able to do a proper pull-up.
- Cook at home more (eat out max. 3-4 times a week).
- Eat healthier.
- Incorporate more HIIT/circuits into workouts.
- Try doing yoga/meditation.
- Practice waking up + sleeping early.
- Take better care of my skin.
- Save up more money.
- Learn new languages (Japanese/French).
- Read more books.
- Do well in school and graduate.
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Many things happened in 2019. Many firsts, which I guess was pretty predictable (because life is always about experiencing new things amirite?!). Many bumpy roads and hiccups too, and I was forced to accept and cope with many things that came with grief. Grief accompanied me throughout the year as I picked up myself from the losses, and kept me awake on many lonely nights - but because of it, I learned how to cope and move on with life despite all the struggles. I also finally learned how to accept and love myself more, by having a healthier diet and lifestyle (I was pretty damn active, working out at 4-5 times a day consistently for weeks and even months). I had a lot more time for myself since I lived alone, and even more so after my LDR ended. So I took all the time I had and invested it in myself - to do things that I love, to treat my body better, cook good food, watch more dramas, take photos and did whatever I wanted. Because I learned how to love myself more, I stopped settling for anything less than I deserved, stood up for myself more, and learned how to not tolerate bullshit from some people. I also prioritised my studies, worked my ass off for my assignments, and did decently well in school. I guess I could say that I spent most of the year looking forward to my graduation, because after all I've already been in Uni for 4 years.
I'd like to think that 2019 treated me pretty well, and one thing I know for sure is that the year will always have a special place in my heart (and life) because graduating from Uni marks the end of another significant chapter in my life. 2018 was a year of growth, change and learning. 2019 too, was a year of growth and learning - and also a year of acceptance & understanding self-love perhaps? I think I learned many valuable lessons this year, and I'm grateful for them. I wonder what 2020 has in store for me, but I can't say that I'm not excited to see where life will bring me to next.
Would it be a good year?
I guess we'll see.
