CHERYL

13 MORE DAYS. This morning I got woken up by the alarm, and honestly I'm so happy to say that my body clock has been improving — I'm now sleeping at 1am every night instead of those ungodly hours at 3/4am hahah. This is why I've also been forcing myself to get up from my bed before 11am everyday, slowly but SURELY.

/ Pardon me for my grammar in this post, because I'm feeling a lil fuzzy after eating panadols hahah /


These days the weather has been INSANE, with the rain pouring and hitting this second and the Sun blazing the next. This morning I went down to the pool to tan, and man it was CRAZY. During my first five minutes of tanning the Sun was scorching hot, but after those five minutes were up the dark clouds started taking over and the sky became gloomy in just a few seconds (the other residents staying at my condo must have thought I was crazy tanning under nothing, hahah). This lasted for another ten minutes, and I was mentally getting prepared to pack up and leave before it started raining, but shortly after I saw a bunch of white clouds moving towards the Sun and pushing the dark clouds away. So I stayed and I watched as the dark clouds disappeared to allow the Sun to reappear. It was the perfect analogy for "In time, this too shall pass" — aka one of my favourite quotes I live by hahah. But who knew, three minutes later it started DRIZZLING. (Believe it or not, but as I was typing this just now, the sky was literally changing from a sunny weather to a gloomy one in few minutes.) CRAY. But I stayed on despite the furious drizzle because I knew it was going to pass soon. Even though it was sad seeing the dark clouds taking over, it was so fascinating watching the clouds hovering above and making their way across the endless sky.

There's just something incredibly beautiful about the moon, the kind of beauty I can't quite put my finger on. I am always at a loss for words whenever I try to describe what I feel, but it's just incomprehensible. The sheer incredulous beauty of the night seem to always assent the moon to shine out a little more in the vast expanse of everything. Looking at how round the moon is, I can't help but feel like my life is whole and replete in everything. I feel so comforted, and overwhelmed with so much gratitude.

I must say, this week has been pretty much humdrum - I am spending most days at home resting instead of going out everyday like I used to. Even though it can get boring most of the time, I'm still especially thankful for a period of recharging before life gets busy again next month.
Last night I had a pretty scary and intense dream, I dreamt that Marcus was a serial killer and he killed almost all my friends. I was totally scared out my wits and I tried to stop him countless times but he just didn't listen, and somehow the craziest part was that it didn't appear gory or as heartless as it seemed to me, but I was just so heartbroken to see all my friends collapsed on the floor with so much blood and there was literally nothing I could do to stop him. It was totally INSANE. And it felt so real, that I cried so much in the dream. And I swear that dream totally drained all my energy because by the time I woke up, I felt like a total zombie even though I had almost 10 hours worth of sleep. I think it was just too intense and I was probably 100% engaged with it.  Hahah, I really do wonder how dreams come about. It's just so MAGICAL. Like, how do they even form? Why do they exist? Do they have meanings to it? Are they some sort of life predicament? I remember reading something on the Internet before and they said that the people you see in your dreams are people you've seen before in your life when you're conscious and living, because the human mind cannot form human faces on its own. Man, if there's a subject all about the human mind I totally wouldn't mind taking it.

I must say that took me quite awhile to make, it isn't as easy as it may seem especially if you have to FILM it while cooking. I gave up filming halfway because I thought it would be much better to focus on cooking my food instead. I couldn't find my slicer so I had to use a small knife to peel the potato skin and almost gave up again but decided not to. In the end the curry came out pretty decent, and in fact I like it quite a lot. It's so tasty and it doesn't feel heavy in the stomach at all. I cooked a whole big pot for myself so I'm leaving it for tomorrow's dinner as well. I seriously LOVE vegan curries.

After dinner, I went for a quick shopping fix with my mum and I got new clothes. We also bought some Chinese New Year decorations for the upcoming CNY and honestly, I'm quite excited for it! So after coming home, I just watched the TV, showered, chilled, made tea, picked a mask (Tonight's choice is Citrus) and now I'm blogging. What an ordinary and chill day today, but sometimes, ordinary can be beautiful.

What a BREADY morning today - Had two of this AMAZING red bean buns and three thick slices of black bean bread from Duke. Such a carby and bready breakfast but WHY NOT. Breads are becoming my new favourite afternoon snack somehow, not only because they are hella delicious but also because they can fill me up more than any other snacks, so YAY.

So it seems like my body has been craving for warm food in the mornings nowadays and I totally love it, because even though that means I wouldn't get my fibre intake in the mornings (because if I have smoothies or nice cream at least they are made up of fruits), hot foods really do warm my system inside. It's just a indescribable, comforting feeling.


Out of nowhere I suddenly recalled I had filmed some videos with my Gopro when I was in Cambodia, and because I realised it was enough to make it into a full length video I compiled all the videos I had, edited and uploaded it on my channel. And well, if the video isn't working, here's the link.